No Condemnation

Ladies, a battle has been raging within my heart and soul…I have been feeling like I am in the middle of the Jordan.  Here I am sitting on the dry ground, the priests holding the Ark of the Covenant behind me, waiting for me to move before they let the flood waters rage forward.  I look to the dessert, at who I have been, wandering in my disobedience.  I turn my eye to the Promised Land before me…what right do I have to walk forward when I have failed my God so grievously?  I may be on the brink, between the dessert and my Promised Land, but I don’t even know where to place my next step or if I will even have the strength to stand.  Oh how I have wished the priests would just walk on, leaving me sitting in the dirt as I watch them step onto the bank of the Promised Land and let the waters flow over me, washing me away.

You see, there are two voices inside, one screaming, “You think that if people really knew you, they would stick around and listen to your words?  That they would draw closer to God?  No way, they will disown you.  You are a hypocrite and no one should give your words any weight even if you’re talking about God!”  The other voice, God’s, is so still and quiet within me, that I have had to hear it from others, simply because I just could not hear His voice, it was being drown out by the screaming.

I shared my story, this battle that has been raging, with my prayer group, 12 precious sisters who aren’t afraid to pour God’s Truth into my life; whether I like that Truth or not!  I don’t know why, but I expected to hear words of condemnation from them, after all, that was all I could hear in my heart.  What I heard instead was conviction and grace.  I wasn’t expecting to hear good things from them, I was looking for confirmation that I was to wander in the dessert of disobedience for another “40 years” before laying eyes on the Promised Land again.  Instead, they poured out God’s Truth.  I am loved unconditionally, that “God uses broken vessels not fake perfect ones,” and “You can push but {we’re} not leaving your side…like Sugarland sings…we are stuck like glue.”  Above all, despite my failure to uphold God’s commands perfectly in my life, I have been forgiven and I am already free.  In that freedom, I have to trust that as my sisters have said, “God will handle the pieces.  He will give {me} the words.”  You see, in my freedom, God may call me to “make it right,” but He may also call me to simply move forward.  For now, I’m still waiting to hear from Him about what He wants me to do next.

Chapter 7, When Doubt Whispers “I’m Such a Failure” in A Confident Heart is all about the condemnation the enemy speaks into our hearts when we fail God.  Let’s face it, for many of us it’s not a whisper, Satan screams and taunts us, danging our past sins in our faces, our failures…either perceived or actual.  I cannot tell you how desperately I needed to read this chapter right this very moment in time and take in its Truth, it’s promises.  Satan knew just when to pounce, when he wanted to drown out God’s Truth…but God knew too!  God knew I would need my sisters right now and He knew just how much I would need to read this chapter right now!  He knew I would have a hard time hearing His voice, so He provided more ways for me to tune in to His Truth.  Jesus knows my sins, but my sins aren’t who I am {pg125}!  I cannot do this on my own but God isn’t asking me to, He knows full well I do not have the strength!  He has graciously given me a fellowship of sisters to help me along the way.  Above all, He has given me His Son Jesus Christ, who has made satisfaction for my sin, washed me clean, white as snow, He refines me with fire and, through the conviction of the Holy Spirit, He leads me back to the path of His righteousness.

Are you connected?  Do you have people in your life where you can tell them anything and they will speak God’s Truth in love?  You may not always like what they have to say, but the question is whether or not they are coming from the heart of God.  Do you connect with Christ the Word made flesh?  Take some time each day to be with Him in prayer, reading the scripture, in Christian fellowship.  This is the only way we will get these whispers…screams…of doubt to fade into the background.  We have to replace them with His voice and we can’t do that unless we spend enough time with Him to know what that voice sounds like.  In the mean time, know that, 

“There is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.” Romans 8:1

“Jesus asked her, “Woman, where are they? Has no one condemned you?” “No one sir, “ she said.  “Then neither do I condemn you,” Jesus declared.  “Go now and leave your life of sin.” John 8:9-11

“as far as the east is from the west, so far has He removed our transgressions from us.” Psalm 103:12

Advertisements

11 thoughts on “No Condemnation

  1. Thank you for beautiful YOU. We all know those voices taunting us- telling us we are frauds. I’m dancing with you, living the life that Jesus came to give… life to the fullest. I love you.

    Like

  2. Dear Princess, Your Dad says that you’ve been hanging out with some liars and thieves (a noisy bunch)… Tell ’em to shut up (take authority), ditch ’em and head home, His arms are waiting to hold you…for you are His precious daughter! You know who you are (you are real with yourself) but you also must recall…that it’s about Him…and that covers it ALL! –(refocus) Find rest, dear Princess in the arms of our Heavenly Daddy. P.S. I thought I heard Jesus tell me that He would love to dance with you…I hope you will take Him up on his offer! with love, your sister.

    Like

  3. Just found your blog, and want to say bless you for your tender and deep insight. May the Lord continue the great work he is doing in and through you. Keep writing sister!

    Like

  4. I am so glad that someone else felt the same way I did about chapter 7. I have already read it twice. I thought the scripture references were awesome. It has been my favorite chapter so far.

    Like

  5. This is certainly what I wanted to find. Thank you for the article. BTW, other pages are a bit less useful. No offece, simply try to keep quality in this way 🙂

    Tom Octocus

    Like

Join the conversation...

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s